Ember

It suddenly,
Because it could,
Because a pointer
Cercumstance prevailed,
became a soured
What the hell
Lets have a laugh
              day.

Without a blink or a rumble or a chill.
Without “now” is where I am.
Complaining?
Yes. From lack of will.
No pain for me. No rocket burst.
I blinked
And suddenly
Horridly
No scan or search.
There for the your great delight
Is she
Who just in every way, was she,
Was bright and with life and love,
As is she,
Dumb as the back door looked 
Said the words

Goodbye.

Each eye said it.

I rebounded.
Refused astounded
Confused then sounded
The last alarm.

For I knew though I denighed it,
Well I knew
though so profound it
Washed me
Then washed her away.

For you a day
Turned for the worse
For me returning
I Saw and in seeing,
Within
Without rehersal,
Saw such a damnable curse

Not very sober when I wrote this and extremely distraught. Monday 26th June 2006